Poems, essays, and other writings by eric bleys

First part of an incomplete poem (still in editing process, early draft) titled "Temptations of Cassius"

A thousand miles of broken glass


Dust, ash, winter’s harsh rash


Lay before Cassius


The death of a dying heart which never stops beating


The pain of a billion weights upon a pin


The thousands of hammers hitting the heart


The heart beats to never know another


Another beat


Blood red


Wiser than the red


Is empty thoughts that cannot control


The ocean that covers a million miles ahead


Is nothing but dead


And every dead thing


Has floated to the top


The smell of death


Is so great


The heart is the smell of death


And it beats a billion pains


Wanting to die


It cannot.


So Cassius was.

Though a hero in minds such as ours


His wife had betrayed him


She held adultery with another man

With a man he thought of as his closest friend


And they, adulterous union


In the perplexity of passion


Decided to Murder


The one son


Son of Cassius and his wife


To remove memory of the union


Of Cassius and his wife.


He then fled


The town of arrows and deadly skies


On a journey long to go home


To his mother


From whom betrayal had never come


The wilderness surrounds him


Now like a black sky


Mist carries away the thoughts


Of unthinkable agony


Agony roles in waves


And like the engines of war


And cuts through the world

Breaking the stars of the world


Holding things together


Is what breaks apart


Horror after horror


Comes before the eyes


Such was the heart of Cassius


A war zone


The blood mixed with iron


Fire sparks amid the snow


The stars as suns all die together


All the stars die in perfect union


Together the universe forgot all its lights in an instant


And utter darkness overcomes everything


Nowhere is there light


For every star has died


With no suggestion of return.


The universe has lost all its lights


For every star has died


In its place is a strange red wave


Hovering in the darkness


Meaning no longer exists


Guidance is no longer to be faithful

For there is no star upon which to go


Cassius from his torture must continue


His journey


Through bleak islands filled with dreams.


The lips of his son


Are now gills of a fish


For nature cares not


About the dead carcass of his son


But makes a mockery out of him


Putting pieces of him unto objects


As to terrify Cassius and laugh at him


Suddenly he felt it


The universe was laughing its great cruel laugh


The clouds above were composed of his son’s ears


The ground below was his crushed skulls


The sea around the shore was his eyes


Eyes crushed in oblivion


His organs were compiled into trees


So the forests would remind him of death


The sand of the desert was his hardened blood


His son’s blood made dry was the sand under the feet


A winged creature appeared

With his son’s brain crushed into its eye sockets


Starting new


He realized


His own mind


Was recreating


And multiplying death pieces


Of his son


Onto the world around him and everywhere


Multiplying these pieces


Millions of times over


Into the fabric of the world


He reemerged


In his walk


Starting to see again the normal sun


Not to believe that the terror had ended


But merely given him a break from madness


There standing upon the mount of mountains in the field


Stood a raven


Fair, wise, gentle


Knowing both wisdom and magic


The raven spoke thus softly


“There is a sun which never goes out

For even as mortals by nature suffer


And suffer they great pain and betrayal


There is a sun which never goes out


The foolish will worship their agony


And make God out of wood


But for the wise


There is a sun which never goes out


But for the true


There is a sun which never goes out


But for the bold


There is a sun which never goes out


But for the righteous one


There is a sun which never goes out


But for the kind in heart


There is a sun which never goes out


Let me show you this vision now


And Cassius looked up


As he had known in literal time


Been walking three days through mountainous valleys


Close to shores of classical times


He saw a great vision


Water flowing upward into the sky

Amid the mountains


Peaks of ice and beauty


Where thus by the water


Water splashing up the mountains


And in the snow light grew up


Up and up and up


Into the sky light grew upward


A sword lay at the top


And a banner read


“For let the brave now conquer


Let the pure of heart now ring


Ring their heart's in good deeds upon the altar


Let your journey be one in faith


Good faith


For you shall see the valley of the living


And the spirits of the blessed


If you now


Even still


In great pain


Stay faithful


To what you know in your heart to be right


To be good


To be righteous


To be holy


To be pure.


Stay faithful


And let the rain pour upward


And the mountains grow downward


Thus making a path


Of peace


For the righteous


Will travel through it


And it will be the abode of the blessed


Peaceful is the eye which sees it


But now you must stay good


Stay faithful


In everything stay righteous”


And so the raven spoke to Cassius


As he witnessed these things again and again


Now


Bringing him back to literal time


Was the hunger


Striking his mind


It was a strange, a foggy day


Mixing with light was a beam of iron


And red fluttering sights


Hung up upon the walls


A cave may hang


As this one did


From the sides of a hill


And deep buried in its presence


Was images


So Cassius


Bringing in his kill


Brought forth the meat


And in the cave did he discover


A man there


With light gray eyes


Topped upon a mind


With gentle intentions


He sat down


And was welcomed


To proceed


To cook his food


Ancient paints were upon the wall

This is the place


Where humankind can find itself


When any mind so strikes the side


Of its own brilliance


It must first so discover


The deep chasm


Of human thought


Which stretches back through the ages


To tough its light on human souls


To speak its grace and smooth the mind


To find


Ancient truth again


Hanging upon the wall


To find a great voice


In any time


One must find the spirit of past ages


And so Cassius


Leapt upon the wall


Only through mind


The trees sway among flowing plains


As stars flutter in and out


As is created by the axis of the sky

World of soft worlds


Streams flowing in bright heights


Discovering


The melding and blending


Of soft flowing structures


Across the ages of eons


The fair wheat


Was streaming with the sun


And glittering each in its purpose


For its beauty was as a mountain rising in the morning


And light glitters as upon the walls


Bright flowing waterfalls


Fluttering images with dawn


Soft sights in emerging light


Bright blistering dawn


Streaks its red sights here


To be here is to love


Coming from this dream


He looked again upon


His new companions eyes


Don’t give a eulogy


Until you find your home

This truth laid down its grace


Simply by the look of the elderly man's eyes


With not a sound


And yet the clarity was there


It may be thought


That in studying ancient beauty


One could find a way out


Of the chasms and dense paths


Which lie upon each other with everlasting towers


Which is the connections and webs of suffering


The suffering that strikes deep at the soul itself


However, even in satisfaction at the greatest beauties


Pain still seeps forward cresting and winding its moon in the deep


The deep dark winding paths of light


Light which is not light but merely flows like light


It is rather darkness


And even if the mind finds relief in distraction


There still exists


Past the point of water where one still would wade


The drowning point where one can no longer swim


Swim to whatever safety may exist


It is like being 1000 miles out into the ocean

And this is the distance on every side


From any possible shore


And hence with nothing to save you


No boats nor floating things


You know that death will face you


And stare you down


You cannot swim to safety


In the same way a mind cannot distract itself


No matter how great a distraction may be


When beneath the surface of what the mind now considers


There is true and great suffering


Life lies in the middle of a wild field


With moments of joy and awe stricken love


But also with moments of relentless terror


Where terror strikes upon terror


And the eyes look up to an ever growing pattern


Of joyless strikes of terror in the eyes


The paths, the maps, and the wild winds of guidance


Sometimes only point to pain


As a bleak field in dark stained hands


Lifts itself up to look upon


With horror at its own, way, place, and life

In this way Cassius could find no true distraction


From the pain beneath his skin


Re-flexing itself into every moment and movement he could feel


His mind made swift movements to focus on


The needs of his flesh feeling great strain


Straining as a newly grown weed


Moves itself to find its sustenance


And thus in this way Cassius made his food


And the elderly man tipped his head


Welcoming him with kindness


Sit down


Thus striking in the mind


Came a most unfamiliar phenomenon


Since hours and hours of love had past


With his wife


One would think total trust must exist


Following from the premise


The thought, reality


Picture, and practice


And yet now


Just in a glance from a moment


A moment built in structures of time

Behind the glassy eyes of experience


There is the other world


Of shapes and structures


Building images


Which from these images build new frames


And in this frames comes the world you and I know


Cassius was able to know


That his new friend could be trusted


As doubt like a shadow wades over human affairs


So this constant feature


Of life


Suddenly drifted away


And a form of knowledge strangely emerged


Knowing with certainty he was in good company


He drifted


After his warm meal


Into sleep


Into a new world he fell


In this realm


His head felt cold and dust


An odd feeling felt


And sparkling in the gut


Came to string his mind into pieces


Of concern mixed with excitement


A vision came


The first light


Light of bright streaks


As one could see in primal sky


Brings images into form


So Cassius says he was near a lake


And looking downward


He saw a woman emerging


From the water


The lake was dark


And the sky above was in darkness


Covering


As miles of ice


May cover the ground in an arctic haze


She was dressed in red


And he remembered


Days of sweet remembrance


And in bitterness


He had to admit


That he had enjoyed


Many hours with his former wife


This thought standing on its own


Was like a bitter ring of death


Showing itself on ones arm


Predicting the worst of any fate


In a spiral of strange


Desiring


Sweet


Bizarre


Captivating


And deathly images


He could remember his moments with her


How could goodness exist


In a dark fire swirling in the ice


The mind crushes itself with strange addiction


And


In unnatural fluctuations of thought


Finds a hint of pleasure


Which is itself a form of torture


Out beyond the stretch of space


Came a tunnel

Flowing in its density


From the glass sky


Which in squares was composed


As when haunted gods


And heroes of old


Were said to dwell in abiding places


Captured in these glass skies


While down below


Bellowing was Cassius


As he came up through the tunnel


And thus he awoke


With a yell and a spit


He emerged in the new realm


Which was yet not so uncommon


But was his true place since the stars of birth


And in the red rose of morning


He knew the green bud


From the ground which gave it life


The petals fell before him


His companion in the cave gave a frightened look


Concern grew quick and sincere


Across his face

And like a flash of divine wisdom


Showed itself to Cassius


And echoing in its depths


Created a new world


With his face as an ever growing icon


Sight of sights to strip the mind


Of every folly not knowing love


“Fine, just a dream”


He quickly muttered


Speaking up and out hearing it through ages


As if his voice was slowed to last such a time


Then he knew


That he was at a cross section


A moment in a path


Which was planned by the cruel fate of destiny


He would resent


Because with it is a tarnished purity


Like rusted iron


And kind words distorted


To be marks of bitterness


And suffering


Like ashes from the fire

Poured cruelly into the face of the innocent


So was his leaving of the cave


Driven by duty and necessity


The cave was shrouded in mist


And deep fog captured its time


Space bellowing its strange echo


Leaves wither and die slowly


As such was the frame


Draped across the image


Of that cave hanging in the mist


The primal thing


Of that which is good and true


Was reminded to him there


And dwelling in it


He knew


Its spaces in the naturalness


Of dimly emerging light


The light which gives to all things


Light pouring across the valley


And smiling its kind face


On hearts of every heart


Deep in the mind


Giving it joy

A new found brilliance


As silence before God


As a moon shining in the morning


As brilliant rays of sun


Flying as in dreams


From a deep dark backdrop of the night


A classic archetype lay before him


As when the young must leave the pure care of their mother


And go out into the wide world alone


So when the hunter must leave the beautiful canyon


Or the beautiful jungle


Because duty requires it


It requires that one must leave


And dwell elsewhere for the hunt


So with this changes


Brings a motion


Past pure appreciation for life itself


That sweet and kind virtue


Bringing happiness in ever growing yields


To the state of dire responsibility


In this way Cassius set out


Knowing that corruption may come at any door


Door of his mind and space of his heart


So he kept wandering


Ever westward


Till he comes to his kind isle of home


And sweet warmth of kindness


So his dream upon dream


As walls make spaces clear


And magic makes imaginings come forth


So he wandered onward


Across the rocking rails


Of iron rocks


And sagging bushes


Of wine dark skies


And crawling dark bugs


To the beads


And glass bottles


Of a winding thread


A place for sprawling paths


Across a journey wide and well traveled


Hours passed upon hours


Till he crawled forth

And in a new space


Saw a dawning light


And so for ten times thirty hours


He walked, rested, and walked


Across valleys


Over hills


Over dense green places


And soft plains with sheep


Over kind meadows and tight roads


In places and spaces


Crawling under the sun


Until he came upon


A town under the sun letters


Letter burning in high heights


And towering figures


Of bright lights


Men draped in cloaks


With lanterns hanging upon them


Lighting up their sides


Black slits across their eyes  

Within which was only cruelty


The Moon and the Sun

Its Paths are Merely Dust